I'm just a piece of dandelion seed, that flew with the wind, away from where I used to be, to find a place to belong to, but I won't forget who I was
Saturday, March 29, 2008
underestimate
suatu hari aku masuk toko sport, cari baju senam. tokonya lumayan besar dan komplit. kalau masuk toko, aku lebih suka dibiarkan melihat-lihat dan memilih sendiri. baru kalau perlu bantuan aku akan minta tolong pramuniaganya.
one day I went to a sport shop. it was quite big and complete. I usually prefer to be let alone to be able to see around and choose what I like. and I'll call the clerk when I need some help.
di toko ini, mungkin memang standarnya pelanggan harus dilayani sebaik-baiknya, yaitu dengan mendampingi si pelanggan saat sedang melihat-lihat atau memilih barang. jadi begitulah, seorang pramuniaga mendampingiku.
in this shop, may be, the standard is to give the best service to costumers, which means to accompany them when seeing around. so that was how it went. a clerk accompanied me.
'cari apa mbak?'
'what are you looking for, miss?'
'baju senam'
'ftiness suit'
tidak kuduga bantuan yang diberikannya.
'yang murah di sebelah sana', katanya sambil menunjuk ke deretan baju murah.
the help she gave was inscrutable.
'you can find the cheap ones over there', and she pointed to the cheap area.
bukannya aku tidak suka harga murah. aku akan cari yang diskon habis-habisan kalau perlu. tapi kata-kata si mbak ini menunjukkan dia underestimate pada pelanggan. menurutku itu tidak sopan. ingat julia roberts di 'pretty woman?'. dia ditolak belanja di suatu butik karena masih pakai kostum 'kerja'nya. padahal dia bawa kartu kredit tanpa limit punya richard gere...
it's not that I don't like cheap prices. I'd look for big sale if I need to. but what this girl said showed how she underestimated a customer. I think it's rude. remember julia roberts in 'pretty woman'? she was rejected in one boutique because she was still wearing her 'working' costume, whereas she was holding richards gere's unlimited credit card...
jadi aku berkata, 'saya cari yang bagus dan saya suka. bukan yang murah. dan saya rasa saya ngga perlu cari di sini', lalu aku pergi.
so I said, 'I'm looking for something good, that I like. not something cheap. and I don't think I will look for it here', and I left.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
just another 'weird' tag
Here are the rules:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
I think I'm pretty weird. I have posted some on my old post. And here's some more:
1. I have SIX blogs and I tried to post on them regularly, but it doesn't work. This one is my favorite, and the only one I use english in all posts. The second one is all about me. The third is random things in community and i still post some times. Fourth is about 'what I eat today', but I could only hold on it for a month -- it's so boring doing it. Fifth, I made it and left it without any post. Last, has just been built few days ago.
3. I don't like to eat. And it explains why I'm so thin. I eat only to surfive, and to prevent my maag gets in trouble.
4. I don't like watching TV.
5. I don't wear make up. I mean I do, but only when I want to, and it's not everyday. And once I wear it, I never reapply, I don't care if it's rubbed or washed.
6. I'm dark, but I dyed my hair in light color. It's weird, but I like it.
7. I hate it when somebody calls me 'Bu' (maam). And happy when they call me 'mbak' (miss). O please...
I want to tag Tori :), Angie, Kelli, Burpclothbabe, Pasha, Janice, and Laura.
what's in your bag?
I was thinking about posting something like this, then I saw someone already did it (for any reason). but I'm gonna do this anyway.
aku sedang berpikir mau post sesuatu tentang ini, ketika aku lihat sesorang sudah melakukannya (apapun alasannya). tpi aku tetep akan post ini.
things that makes me feel secure and ready to go anywhere...
benda-benda yang membuat aku merasa nyaman dan siap pergi ke mana aja...
clock wise:
searah jarum jam:
* simple make up kit that I don't use much actually (body lotion, face moist, face powder, eyebrow pencil, lipstick, and cream blush on
* make up kit sederhana yang sebenernya juga ga banyak aku pake: body lotion, pelembab wajah, bedak, pensil alis, lipstick, dan cream blush on.
* wallet with all its contents (money, cards etc.)
* dompet dengan segala isinya.
* ugly note book
* buku catatan kecil yang usang
* pencil box (pens, pencil, eraser, a small ruler, small cutter, glue, flashdisk, card reader, highlighter, and my working id card)
* kotak pensil: pulpen, pensil, penghapus, garisan kecil, cutter kesil, lem, flashdisk, card reader, stabillo, dan id kerjaku.
* mukena (it's some kind of dress to cover my whole body when I pray)
* mukena
* and something I can't take the picture, is my handphone, which I'm taking all pictures with. but you can see it on my side bar, held by me.
* dan sesuatu yang tidak bisa aku ambil gambarnya, yaitu handphoneku, karena kupake untuk ambil semua gambarnya. tapi bisa dilihat kok, di sidebar, sedang kupegang.
and they're all in this back pack. yes this is what I bring anywhere I go. so not girly huh?
dan semuanya ada di ransel ini. yup, aku bawa ransel ke mana pergi. ga cewek banget ya?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
rainbow interlude
#2
Ibit won another singing contest last friday.
Oh... I've told my self not to post about this. But how can I not? She got #2 and beaten one who was in the 2nd place in the former contest.
I chose her a song with hard tones (it was so fluctuative) and it was kinda gambling since Ibit was having flu then. But she succeeded.
Not the best picture of her performance. I took it with my handphone from afar.
That's Ibit at the second from right. She's changed her dress with those pink pants right after she finished performing. She can't stand wearing dresses for a long time coz she's like a bunny who jumped here and there all the time...
Itu Ibit no 2 dari kanan. Begitu turun panggung langsung roknya dilepas dan ganti celana panjang. Dia nggak tahan pake rok mekar begitu lama-lama, wong anaknya suka lompat ke sana kemari kaya kelinci...
Monday, March 24, 2008
and the batik goes to.....
congratulations, and let me know how I could send it to you.
thanks for everyone.
I'll keep up blogging, just keep up commenting
:)
Saturday, March 22, 2008
happy birthday
Thursday, March 20, 2008
beautiful pain
I'd go to when you first said your name and I said mine
and I'd choose not to talk to you
or even look at you
'coz what following it after
are things which make me suffer
...
beautiful pain.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Candi Gedong Songo
Capek, tapi seneng.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Ir is a loving boy...
I always see that Ar and Ir has a very special bond between them. Is it because they've been together since they were zygots?
Aku selalu melihat Ar dan Ir punya ikatan yang sangat istimewa di antara mereka. Mugnkinkah karena mereka sudah bersama sejak mereka sama-sama masih berbentuk zygot?
But they show their loving each other in different way, and sometime I think, different amount. Ar seems a litttle more careless while Ir does another way. Well they fight a lot about things but I think it's just a part of the game, how to make their days fun.
Tapi mereka menunjukkan kasih sayang dengan cara yang berbeda, dan dalam kadar yang berbeda pula. Ar kelihatannya agak-agak cuek. Mereka sering berantem tentang ini itu tapi kupikir itu hanya bagian dariermainan, untuk bikin hidup lebih seru.
One day I got tired hearing them fighting on things. So I said, 'I think I'm gonna send one of you to your granny, so you don't have to fight anymore'. They were awaiting for 'who would that be'.
Suatu hari aku capek banget dengerin mereka berantem. Lalu aku bilang, "Nanti salah satu akan IBu kirim ke Embah biar gak usah berantem terus'. Mereka menunggu siapa yang akan dikirim ke Embah.
'It's gonna be you, Ar'
'Kamu ya Ar'
They both said together, 'No!'
Bareng mereka menjawab, 'Nggak'
'Okay then it's Ir'
'Kalau begitu Ir'
Ir said: 'No', but Ar said: 'Yes'
Kata Ir: 'Tidak', tapi Ar bilang:'Ya'
Another day, Ar was very sick and couldn't get off his bed. His body was hot and red, and he cuddled up in blanket. Ir was outside the room sitting, bored. Then Ir got in the room brought many toys they usually fought of, and put it beside Ar. "You can play it all. Get well soon', he said.
Di hari lain, Ar sakit dan tidak bisa ke mana-mana. Badannya panas dan merah, dan dia meringkuk aja di dalam selimut. Ir duduk di luar, kelihatannya bosen banget. Lalu dia masuk ke kamr membawa banyak mainan yang biasanya mereka perebutkan dan meletakkannya di sebelah Ar. 'Ni, Ar, buat kamu semua. Cepet sembuh ya'
Few days ago, when Dan helped Ar pee and brush kids teeth before bed. I was lying on a mattras in front of our TV waiting for them to finish, I got diarhea and was feeling so weak. Ar suddenly cried out when Dan splashed water on his p**** (this is the way we clean up). Ar got hurt on it while he was biking the afternoon. He cried so loud and Ir who was waiting for his turn in my room got out and hug me, 'what's wrong with Ar?'. I told him what happened. He hugged me tight and I can see his eyes was watering.... And I saw this happened alot, every time Ar got hurt or cried, Ir would have his eyes watering like he suffered the same.
Beberapa hari yang lalu ketika Dan bantuin anak-anak gosok gigi dan pipis sebelum tidur. Aku tiduran di kasur di depan TV, aku sedang dapet diare dan lemes banget. Tiba-tiba Ar menjerit ketika Dan menyiramkan air ke p****nya. Rupanya lecet karena jatuh waktu main sepeda. Nangisnya keras banget. Ir yang lagi nunggu giliran di kamar keluar dan memeluk aku, 'Ar kenapa, bu?'. Lalu aku ceritakan kenapa. DIa memelukku lebih erat, dan aku bisa melihat matanya berkaca-kaca. AKu sering melihat kejadian yang begini. Setiap kali Ar menangis atau kesakitan, matanya akan berkaca-kaca dan kelihtannya dia ikut merasakan penderitaan Ar.
I'm not saying that Ar doesn't have empathy on others, but not as much as Ir shows. May be Ar just doesn't show it as much as he feels, who knows...
Aku tidak bilang Ar tidak punya empati ke orang lain, tapi tidak pernah sebesar yang kulihat pada Ir. Mungkin karena Ar tidak menunjukkan seberapa besar yang dia rasakan, diapa tahu...
Ir is so very special.
Ir memang istimewa.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
#100: Batik giveaway
Saturday, March 15, 2008
#99
I'm about to go 100. I just looked back to my archives and found out that there is one old post is still remain a draft. It's from so long ago but I have published it just now. Some thing about circus girls.
Ibit's photopaintings
beautiful interspace
I asked her why she tittled it so. I didn't see any family members. She said these colors together are beautiful. And so is family, beautiful as it is colorful. ????
masih ada beberapa lagi gambar yang dia bikin. tapi sementara ini rasanya udah cukup lumayan buat pameran di 'Dandelion'
Friday, March 14, 2008
Ibit bantuin masak
parallel
stand your ground
take your destiny
realize where you belong
I can’t live a parallel life
coz it has a tunnel between
for me to pass through
from one to the other
and it connected both in anyway
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Sandals and Milkshake
'I want Mocca flavor', said Ibit.
'Aku mau rasa moka', kata Ibit.
'I want strawberry flavor', said Ar.
'Aku mau rasa stroberi', kata Ar.
'I want water flavor', said Ir.
'Aku mau rasa air', kata Ir.
This is what I meant with how he said surprising things.
Ini lho yang kumaksud, Ir selalu mengatakan hal-hal tak terduga.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Belajar Membaca
ayat pertama turun.... "IQRO'..."
first verse... "read..."
bukannya ingin mencerabut masa bermain anak-anak dan memaksanya untuk belajar. tapi anak-anak harus belajar untuk belajar
not to grab children's play time and push them to study too hard. but children need to learn to study.
Ibit jaman seumuran Ar Ir sekarang udah bisa baca meskipun belum lancar amat. masih suka bingung antara p - d - b. sebelum baca musti dilihat dulu keseluruhan kata, baru bisa putuskan itu p - d atau b.
when Ibit was Ar Ir's age now, she could read even wasn't so fluent. she sometime still get confused between p - d - b. before saying the words she need to see the whole letters to decide is it p - d or b.
ya... waktu itu aku belum kerja. di rumah aja. waktu full buat anak-anak.
well... I didn't work that time. stay at home. full time for children.
waktu Ibit umur 3 tahun, sempet ngerekam dia nyanyi sampe dapat sekaset penuh. perlu waktu hampir sebulan, karena meskipun hafal banyak lagu, kalo lagi nggak mood ya nggak mau nyanyi... toddlers.
I remember when Ibit was 3, I recorded her singing and we got a cassette full. took almost a month, coz although she knew many songs, some time she didn't get the mood and refused to record.... toddlers.
waktu Ir umur 2 tahun belum apal warna, aku panik dan segera memberikan kursus intensif setiap hari. hari pertama aku pake metode 3 mangkok berwarna lego merah - kuning - biru, mengumpulkan lego berwarna yang sama di satu mangkok-- belum dengan menyebutkan warnanya. Ir bahkan ngga ngerti dia harus apa. sempat putus asa. lalu aku bikin robot dari warna-warna lego yang berbeda. tiba-tiba dia ambil lego yang belum dipasang dan memberikan lego dengan warna yang sama dengan robotnya. jadi begitulah: robot merah maem yang merah... alhamdulillah berhasil.
when Ir was 2 and didn't kno colors, I got panic and soon give him an intensif course everyday. first day I used the method of putting legos of same colors in a bowl -- without mentioning the colors. just put them in groups. Ir didn't understand what to do and I got frustrated. then I made robots of different coler. sudddenly he took a piece of lego and fed it to the robot of the same color. so it goes that way: red robot eat red lego... alhamdulillah we did it.
saat ini aku merasa bersalah banget. aku keasikan jadi orang kantoran. kalo di rumah ama anak-anak adanya main-main aja. ngajarin Ar Ir ini itu cuma kalo inget aja. habis anaknya juga ngga pernah minta, malah kadang di ajak belajar susah. beda ama Ibit dulu yang justru selalu minta diajarin karena pengin cepet bisa baca. hasilnya, di umur hampir 5 tahun, mereka baru sampai 'na'. ibu macam apa aku ini...
right now I feel so guilty. I was too busy working. when I am at home all we do is mostly play around. I teach Ar Ir this and that so rarely. they never asked for it too, they some times even refused to learn. unlike Ibit who always asked to learn because she wanted to be able to read. results: in age of 5 Ar Ir gone this far : 'na'. what kinda mother I am.
waktunya membayar kesalahan. aku mulai rutinkan nemenin Ar Ir mengenal membaca, setiap hari, hatta cuma 10 menit. alhamdulillah cepet. mereka sudah siap untuk mengenal huruf vokal selain 'a'.
time to pay. I started to accompany Ar Ir learn to read daily ten minutes a day. alhamdulillah they learn quickly. now they are ready to know other vocals than 'a'
bismillahirrahmaanirrahim,
ayo anak-anak, kita bisa!
come on boyz, we can do it!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
I WENT HOME
It’s been over two months since the last time I visited my parents and Dan’s grandparents. So I did. Alhamdulillah they’re all OK, except that my dad still feel a little weak after getting chikungunya couple weeks ago.
Sudah lebih dua bulan sejak terakhir kali kami mengunjungi orang tuaku dan Mbahnya Dan. Alhamdulillah semua baik dan sehat, kecuali Bapak yang masih agak lemas karena sakit chikungunya beberapa waktu yang lalu.
Fun FRIDAY
My brother Bondan was there with his wife End and his son Imong. Ar + Ir + Imong = disaster. But I let them run around the house, yelled and scream – and cry. My parents don’t mind, for a day or two, so one of us should go before their blood tension rise…
Adikku Bondan juga ada, sama istrinya End, dan anaknya Imong. Ar + Ir + Imong = bencana. Tapi kubiarkan mereka berlarian keliling rumah sambil berteriak, menjerit, dan menangis. Bapak Ibu juga ngga keberatan kalau Cuma satu dua hari. Jadi salah satu harus pergi sebelum tekanan darah mereka naik….
So we decided to spend the evening in Bondan’s house. He has a new play station, some thing (so far) I never agree to have. I still think some games contains violence like that NARUTO that Ibit and Ar played (and other battle games…) though I knew some don’t. Bondan told me he had a game that would keep me stay in front of it. GUITAR HERO. What could I say, he was right.
Jadi aku putuskan sorenya kami ke rumah Bondan saja. Dia punya Play station baru, sesuatu yang sampai saat ini aku masih belum setuju untuk beli. Menurutku banyak gamenya yang mengandung kekerasan, termasuk game NARUTO yang dimainkan Ibit dan Ar (dan game-game tertarungan lainnya) meskipun aku tahu banyak juga game yang aman-aman saja. Bondan bilang dia punya sesuatu yang bakalan bikin aku betah duduk lama memainkannya. GUITAR HERO. Yo mesti….
So while I and Ibit were busy strumming our ‘guitar’,
Jadi selagi aku dan Ibit sibuk main gitar,
Dan? Dia sibuk motret kami. Lihat aja gambar kakinya di fotonya Ar….
We planned to visit Dan’s grandparents in Terok this day. But I took a little time to take a look at my dam. And this is it’s latest condition.
Agak sore aku ajak anak-anak lihat sawah, dan belajar bahwa ini, akan jadi nasi yang kita makan sehari-hari. Sayangnya hujan turun deras, dan berpeetir pula. Aku ngga berani nyetel TV. Jadi kami menghabiskan petang di ruang tengah ngobrol, lihat-lihat foto lama…
SUNDAY in Solo
Before we went back to Semarang, I stop for a while in Solo and met my sister and family in Manahan Stadium. We watched ‘Jaran Dor’ (Bang Horse) attractions that showed some acrobatic action, included by a 6 yrs old boy.
Sebelum balik ke Semarang aku mampir ke Solo, ketemu Mbakku di Manahan. Nonton atraksi ‘Jaran Dor’, pertunjukan acrobat, termasuk oleh anak umur 6 tahun.
Breakfast under the tree.
On the way back, we stop by in Kampung Kopi Banaran, and home.
Dan di perjalanan pulang mampir bentar di Kampung Kopi Banaran…
Whoah!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
my accomplishment this week....
I worked a l ittle hard but I finally did it. I played 'Little Serenade' by J Hayden.
Now I'm working on 'Mennuet in G' by Bach, and that'll be my next one.
:D
And Ibit is doing prettty well too. She plays better in chords than I do. Her fingers are so small but they dance beautifully....
These are our accomplishment together I guess...
Monday, March 3, 2008
A girl bus singing beggar
I wouldn’t care if only it was a boy or man. I mean I would; I would put a coin or two in their hand -- unless they sang awful, I wouldn’t pay attention or money....
Everybody has to struggle for their life, but some has to struggle harder than the others. She is one of those. And I sympathize to girls who choose to be a singing beggar.
Unemployment has become a big issue in this province in the last few years. Many factories have to fire their workers because they loss more and more each day.
It needs tons of courage to stand there in a bus and sing. Not only because you have to stand in a shaking running bus, strumming guitar and sing. But you have to compete and deal with the boy ones.
Competition in street lives is sure so hard...
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Settle down
I just learned many things of how I should live alife. Things I never really cared.
To be patient.
To understand people, and not always ask people to understand us.
Not to rush.
To control our selves.
Not to determine a thing.
To flow like water in the river.
Happiness and sadness come to make our life colorful, and there's nothing to worry about.