solace

this week's prompt for sundayscribblings is solace. I wrote something about it couple months ago, in my other blog, but it was in Indonesian. so this time I want to rewrite it in both language of Indonesian and English, for Dandelion.


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read a book? what kind of book? some books just make you fell even worse. books they said will strengthen you? some time instead of being solace, it makes me feel guilty.
baca buku? buku apa dulu. ada buku yang kadang justru menambah buruk suasana hati. buku yang menguatkan hati? kadang justru bikin aku makin feel guilty.

listen to music? what kind of music? some songs drifted me away and give more sadness. any kind of song? will the ears listen?
dengerin musik? musik apa dulu. ada lagu yang kadang justru menghanyutkan dan bikin kita makin sedih. lagu seadanya? kupingnya juga ga mau dengerin.

playing piano? OK. but I'm not that good. making mistakes drives me crazy.
main piano? ok. tapi belum pinter. lama-lama bete juga karena salah-salah mulu.

working out? not bad. I can do two hours and get all tired, then go to sleep.
senam? lumayan. tapi paling-paling cuma kuat ikut dua jam. kelelahan, lalu tidur.

sleep? I'm not one who can fall asleep easily. beside, it's not solace, it's a runaway
tidur? aku bukan orang yang gampang tidur. dan itu bukan solace, tapi runaway.

what about reading Qur'an? I know I won't understand the meaning unless I read the translation. and it may sounds too much, finding solace by reading it. but it works
gimana kalau baca Qur'an? aku memang ga ngerti artinya kalau ga baca terjemahannya. dan kedengarannya mungkin 'sok' banget, finding solace dengan baca Qur'an. but it works.

just listening to the words come out of my lips, sounds so peaceful to me.
mendengar kata-katanya keluar dari mulutku, mendamaikan hati.