PETALS (I hate you but I miss you)

sebuah catatan dari menghabiskan long weekend bersama 25-26 desember 2009. tidak ada yang lebih 'nikmat' dari kemesraan bersama keluarga...
a note from a family reunion, 25-26 december 2009. nothing more 'delicious' than being with our family...

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I've often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family / I've always longed for undividedness and sought stability
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And I miss you little sis and Little brother / And I hope you realize I'll always love you
And although you're struggling you will recover / And I miss you little sis and little brother
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But I miss you dandelion
And even love you

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Maunya jajal nyanyi sendiri, tapi cari chordnya setengah mati ngga ketemu, dan kalau berkeras nyari sendiri mungkin ga akan ketemu sampai mati. Jadi mendingan dengar langsung dari penyanyi aslinya… PETALS
I wanted to sing it by myself, but i was dying trying to find the chords. I might already be dead if I kept trying. So please enjoy the song from the very own singer.. PETALS



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Aku tidak akan malu mengakui bahwa kita lima bersaudara bukan anak-anak yang tidak pernah bertengkar. Tidak pernah terkontaminasi cemburu satu sama lain. Harmonis seratus persen tanpa masalah. Tapi aku yakin bukan berarti kita tidak saling mencinta dan mengasihi.
I will not be ashamed to confess that we are not siblings without fights. Nor never been contaminated with jealousy. I wouldn't say we are in a 100% harmony. But that doesn;t mean we do not love each other.

Hubungan persaudaraan terasa berbeda, ketika kita masih anak dan remaja, dengan kini ketika kita sudah punya anak dan remaja. Beberapa hal dulu terasa penting untuk diperdebatkan, dan kini terasa menggelikan. Kadang keberadaan saudara terasa menganggu tapi ternyata tanpa mereka ada yang hilang.
Relationships between siblings feels different, how it was when we were children and now as we have children. Long ago some things seemed so important to fight over, now we laugh at. Long ago some times we thought the existence of siblings some times bothering. Now without them we feel some thing's missing.

Berkumpul menjadi saat-saat yang dirindukan. Lalu ketika saat itu tiba, tidak perduli perbedaan pandangan yang seringkali membuat kita tidak rukun. Tidak peduli dengan anggapanmu bahwa aku keliru mendidik anakku. Tidak peduli bahwa kau tidak bisa menerima kegilaan tingkah lakuku. Tidak peduli bahwa kau kadang begitu kaku. Tidak peduli bahwa kau sering egois dan selalu menganggap dirimu sendiri yang benar. Tidak peduli bahwa kau tidak setuju dengan pola pikirku.
Being together become a moment we miss. Then when the time come, we wouldn't give a damn to any differences those made us missunderstand. I don't care if you think I don't educate my children right. I don't care if you can't understand my craziness. I don't care if you some times so stiff. I don't care if you always think you are always right. I don't care if you don't agree with my opinions.

Waktu kita cuma dua hari dan kita tidak akan menodainya dengan hal-hal tidak menyenangkan. Jadi aku akan ikut makan di restoran yang kau pilih, meskipun aku tidak suka menunya. Aku akan ikut pergi ke tempat yang kau pilih meskipun medannya menyiksa. Aku akan biarkan anak-anakmu membuat kekacauan di mobilku, meskipun setelah ini aku harus kerja setengah mati membersihkannya. Aku akan kubur egoku – hanya dua hari ini saja.
We only have couple days and we will not stain it with things not fun. So I will eat with you though I don't like the menus in the restaurant you chose. I will go to the place you want to go though it will kill me. I will let your children do mess up my car, though after this I will have to work hard cleaning it. I will bury my ego -- for these couple days.

Mari tertawa melihat tingkah anak kita yang polos.
Let us laugh to see our children.

Ibit and Shib (Train Museum - Ambarawa)

Iqbal and Inas walking on the net across the valley (Umbul Sidomukti)

Kuh and the crackers (in front of my house)

Mong, Muy, Ar, Ir, Nauf on the bamboo bridge (Umbul Sidomukti)

Mari tertawa melihat tingkah kita yang wagu.
Let us laugh to see us behaving silly.

a race on the net (Umbul Sidomukti)

let me go!

come dance with us (Train Museum - Ambarawa)

a Reog? (Gedong Songo Temple)

Mari gemas melihat yang masih belum terkontaminasi juga.
Let us be curious about those pure ones.

Lin is still uncontaminated (Train Museum - Ambarawa)

Dan biarkan waktu yang sebentar ini menjadi berharga, juga untuk Bapak Ibu kita yang telah berpuluh tahun berkorban untuk kita. Melihat bahwa jerih payah mereka tidak sia-sia.
And let this moment be precious, also for our parents who have spent years scarifying for us. Let them see they didn't do it for nothing.

the riders (Gedongsongo temple)

23 of us ( in my house)

for this weeks sundayscribblings prompt: delicious

from the launch of 'suicide' - my book.

Alhamdulillah, it was finally launched.
My first book, a collection of 13 short stories I've been writing in the last couple of years.

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya diluncurkan.
Buku pertamaku yang berisi 13 cerpen yang kutulis dalam dua tahun terakhir.



The event was held in Gedung Ki Narto Sabdo, Raden Saleh Cultural Park, Semarang.
Acaranya digelar di Gedung Ki Narto Sabdo, Taman Budaya Raden Saleh, Semarang.

I handed the books to my parents, a friend from Loenpia (a blogger community I joined) and a friend from government office, as a symbol of the launching of the book.
Aku menyerahkan buku kepada kedua orang tuaku, seorang teman dari komunitas Loenpia dan seorang teman dari Pemerintah Provinsi, sebagai simbol diluncurkannya bukuku.


We had two theatrical performances as responses to my stories 'Kondom' and 'Alarm 07.30'.
Ada dua penampilan teatrikal sebagai respon terhadap cerpenku yang berjudul 'Kondom' dan 'Alarm 07.30'




I also played piano and sang the song I wrote, with the same tittle as the book's, 'Suicide'
Aku juga bermain piano (asal-asalan) membawakan lagu yang kutulis sendiri, berjudul sama dengan judul bukunya, 'Suicide'



And a discussion about my book with Triyanto Triwikromo and Aulia A Muhammad, and Agunghima as the Moderator. They all are senior authors from Semarang. What an honor to have them in my event...
Dan sebuah diskusi bersana Triyanto Triwikromo dan Aulia A Muhammad, yang dipandu oleh Agunghima sebagai moderator. Ketiganya adalah penulis senior di Semarang. Sebuah kegormatan bagiku mereka berkenan hadir di acaraku...


I definitely thank everyone who has supported me during the process of building the book, and the launching. Hopefully this would be a start to my journey, as a new born author.
Aku berterima kasih kepada semua pihak yang telah membantuku dalam penyusunan buku, dan peluncurannya. Semoga ini bisa menjadi langkah awal bagi perjalananku, sebagai penulis baru.

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this post is for Photo Story Friday

Hosted by Cecily and Rachael


and also for this week's Tuesday Toot. I think this was a BIG TOOT :D

Tongseng Kambing

Idul Adha, mau tidak mau memaksaku masak daging kambing.

setelah search di google, inilah resep paling sederhana untuk 'kambing'

500 gram daging kambing
200 gram kubis, potong
2 buah tomat, potong
4 siung bawang putih, iris
6 siung bawang merah, iris
4 buah cabai merah, iris
1 sdt lada bubuk
2 sdm kecap manis
garam secukupnya
500 ml santan

tumis bawang putih, bawang merah, cabai. setelah layu, masukkan daging kambing sampai berubah warna. tambahkan kecap, tunggu sebentar. tambahkan santan, tunggu hingga daging empuk. masukkan garam dan lada. masukkan kubis dan tomat, tunggu sebentar. selesai :)


after a search on google, this is the simplest recipe for 'kambing'

500 grams of mutton
200 grams cabbage, cut
2 tomatoes, cut
4 garlic, slice
6 onions, slice
4 red chilli, slice
1 teaspoon ground pepper
2 tablespoons soy sauce
salt
500 ml coconut milk

saute garlic, onion, chilli. after wilting, put the mutton until its color changes. add soy sauce, wait a minute. add the coconut milk, wait until the meat is tender. add salt and pepper. enter cabbage and tomato, wait a minute. finished:)

the new members in the family

today, sasa's babies were born
two cute kittens

bye bye chickenpox

In the last three weeks, chicken pox has made Ir Ar and Ibit stay at home for at least a week – in turns.
It was terrible to see them bearing the fever and itches.
It was horrible to see Ibit standing in front of the mirror and said, ‘Ibu, I look like a monster’ then cried.
I couldn’t even take any picture of them having those dots of the pox all over their bodies - too scary.
Alhamdulillah they have passed through it.
And look at you guys, you are now handsome and beautiful as before!

Dalam tiga minggu terakhir, cacar air telah memaksa Ar Ir dan Ibit untuk tinggal di rumah setidaknya selama seminggu - secara bergiliran.
Menyedihkan melihat mereka merasakan demam dan gatal.
Menyedihkan melihat Ibit berdiri di depan cermin dan berkata, "Ibu, aku terlihat seperti monster," lalu menangis.
Aku bahkan tidak bisa mengambil gambar mereka dalam keadaan titik-titik cacar memenuhi tubuh mereka - terlalu mengerikan.
Alhamdulillah mereka telah melewatinya.
Dan lihatlah, kalian sekarang ganteng dan cantik seperti semula!

I may not be a pianist

but I am a good actor



Ar turned on a recorded song in the piano and pretended playing it. well, that wasn't good enough, boy. you should slide a little to the right for hi-tones :D

tweety VS sylvester

Hosted by Cecily and Emily

Few days ago Ar found a little bird fallen from its nest on his way home from school. He brought the bird home and took care of it. It was small and still couldn’t fly, yet.
The kids fed it with rice and gave it some water to drink. I was glad the bird liked it.
Beberapa hari yang lalu Ar menemukan seekor anak burung yang jatuh dari sarangnya ketika pulang sekolah. Dia membawa anak burung itu pulang dan memeliharanya. Burung itu masih kecil dan belum bisa terbang. Anak-anak memberinya nasi untuk makan dan memberinya minum juga. Sukur burungnya mau.

But as we know, a little bird would never get along with cat. And yes, we have this cat Sasa in our house. And believe she is normal. So I told the kids to always be aware and keep the bird out of Sasa’s reach.
Tapi seperti kita tahu, burung ngga bakalan akur dengan kucing. Dan ya, kami punya kucing Sasa di rumah. Aku yakin dia normal, makanya aku selalu ingatkan anak-anak untuk hati-hati dan menjaga Burung Kecil dari Sasa.



Last night before bed, it was Ar’s turn to brush his teeth. He handed Little Birdie to Ibit to keep, because Sasa was around. Ibit just put it on her arm, and…
Semalam sebelum tidur, giliran Ar untuk gosok gigi. Dia meminta Ibit untuk menjaga Burung Kecil karena ada Sasa. Ibit membiarkan Burung Kecil bertengger di lengannya dan...

Sasa pounce it. Ibit try to take Little Birdie from Sasa’s mouth. She did, but the bird was already wounded.
Sasa menerkamnya. Ibit mencoba mengambil Burung Kecil dari mulut Sasa. Dia berhasil, tapi Burung kecil sudah terluka.

I put some iodine on it. Then I told Ibit to put Little Birdie on its box, bring it to her room, and shut the door to make sure Sasa wouldn’t get in.
Aku beri iodine di lukanya. Lalu aku minta Ibit untuk meletakkan Burung Kecil di kotaknya, membawanya ke kamar, dan menutup pintu supaya Sasa tidak bisa masuk.

"Would it be all right? It's wounded and bleeding" they asked.
"I hope it will. Just let it take some rest.." though I know it wouldn't. The wound was too big for such a small creature...
"Apa dia akan sembuh? Dia luka dan berdarah" tanya mereka.
"Mudah-mudahan. Sekarang biarkan dia istirahat.." meskipun aku tidak yakin. Lukanya terlalu besar untuk makhluk sekecil itu...

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At 01.00 while I was going to do my midnight prayer, as usual (if I could wake up at mid nights) I stepped down stairs to children’s room to see how they were doing. This time, plus how Little Birdie was doing. And I found it cold and stiff.
Jam 01.00 kebetulan aku bangun dan berniat untuk sholat malam. Seperti biasa kalau pas aku terbangun tengah malam, aku menyempatkan turun ke kamar anak-anak melihat mereka. Kali ini, tambah melihat keadaan Burung Kecil. Aku menemukannya sudah dingin dan kaku.




I can not blame my children for crying over it. I remember when I was a child, I cried when my cat was dead …
Aku tidak bisa menyalahkan anak-anak menangisi hal seperti ini. Aku ingat waktu aku masih anak-anak, aku juga nangis waktu kucingku mati...