Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Gift - God is Humorous

PhotoStory Friday
Hosted by Cecily and Linds

I stayed awake till almost midnight, having this imaginairy conversation.
aku ngga tidur sampai hampir tengah malam, terlibat percakapan khayalan ini:

Is this a joke? (I asked)
No it is not
Why are you giving me this?
Because I have to
Why do you have to?
Because you wanted this
I never asked for this
You don't have to ask to tell Me what you want. I always know, and you know that

ini guyon?
kenapa aku diberi ini?
karena harus
kenapa harus?
karena kamu ingin
aku ngga pernah minta ini
memang. tapi kamu kan ngga perlu bilang apa yang kamu mau. Aku selalu tahu. kamu tahu itu

yeah, right. I said I have had enough. I didn't want more. But deep down inside I wanted God to laugh at me and speak: you can say you don't want more. but I do. and there is nothing you can do to prevent me from giving you more, when I want to.
I thought I have prepared my self for this since Ar-Ir was six. still I found myself not that ready though. but this good friend of mine told me, I still have nine months to get ready. well, ready or not it will come to me, and I will have to be ready.
iya. memang aku bilang sudah cukup, aku ngga mau lagi. tapi sebenarnya jauuuuuuuuuuuuuh di dalam lubuk hati yang hampir tak terjamah, aku berharap Dia tertawakan aku lalau berkata: terserah kalau kamu ngga mau lagi. Aku masih mau nambah lagi. dan kamu bisa apa kalau Aku berkehendak memberimu?
kupikir aku sudah mempersiapkan diri untuk ini sejak Ar Ir berumur enam tahun. nyatanya aku belum begitu siap. tapi temanbaikku ini bilang, aku masih punya sembilan bulan untuk menyiapkan diri. siap tidak siap memang harus siap. waktunya akan tiba.

one bag. still can not see how many babies inside. needs couple more weeks to find out. wish me luck *sigh*

I never really liked condoms anyway. and I'm glad that I don't have to deal with it for the next (at least) nine months.
pada dasarnya aku memang ngga terlalu suka kondom. jadi kupikir asik juga, aku ngga perlu berurusan dengan benda itu untuk (paling tidak) sembilan bulan ke depan

thanks. you are funny ya Allah, you really are
I'm pretty humorous if you know Me, actually

terima kasih. Kau lucu ya Allah, benar-benar lucu
Aku ini humoris sebenarnya, kalau kamu cukup mengenalKu

so I slept through the rest of the night, in God's warm embrace, peacefully...
aku pun tertidur lelap menghabiskan sisa malam, damai dalam pelukan hangatNya...


Are You Serious! said...

♥ CONGRATULATIONS!!! I'll pray and cross my fingers that there is only ONE baby this time!!! :) Take care of yourself!

iway said...

yay yay yay!

Steph said...

Congratulations!!! :)

Lauren said...

Oh congratulations!!!! That is wonderful!

Chris said...

Congratulations! I hope you are feeling well.

Lindsay said...

CONGRATS!! I pray you feel well throughout this pregnancy!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! Hope you feel great during the pregnancy!

kaye said...

congratulations, I think it's nice that you and God are on such nice terms.

pinkparis said...

waaaah, selamat mbak. semoga semuanya berjalan lancar :)another gift from Allah, you're surely being blessed :)

Heidi said...

Well congratulations! I remember with my third pregnancy I called my doctor and told him that I had an accident, I was expecting again. I then told him I needed to see him quickly as I was already sick and I was probably only a week and a half along.
I get very ill when I am pregnant so he got me right in.
Anyway, I promise that by the time you have your precious little one(s) you will be glad you have him/them.
(Check out an IUD when you're done if you can. They are great, and you don't have to worry about anything!)
If you'd like to stop by my blog I'm at Cake Crumbs.

Carrie and Troy Keiser said...

Well CONGRATS! How exciting!

Forgetfulone said...

I can't believe I have been so self-absorbed that I haven't been here in ten days to visit you, then I come here and not only is your blog lookin' pretty, but you are going to have a baby! Congratulations! I hope you will blog all about your pregnancy - and other stuff, too!

Forgetfulone said...

Don't feel bad for not visiting more often! I know you have to work. I know you're there when you can be, and I love your comments! I'm praying for a healthy pregnancy for you.

Lizze said...

Clearly, I have been slacking on my blog reading duties as your bloggy friend!

CONGRATS!!!!! I am so exctied for you! :)

Shelle said...

What a lovely blog. Congrats. It's funny you say you have 9 months to get used to your 'other' but I'd say maybe 4 you'll be ready & waiting:) all the best.